the biggest heartache.

It looks like i still have feelings for you and i don't know why. My heart seem unclear, very unclear. Suddenly one moment, i feel like smiling, the other, weeping. I was really hurt when you said about all these first kiss. I know i wouldnt have one and im weak at these stuffs, and you need not feel guilty. I should feel guilty for making you feel guilty.I know you still have feelings for that girl and it would be the same.First love never fades, i know.

Actually i thought of sparing some time avoiding you, knowing where i stand in your heart. but i fail to do so. I know you are blank of what im saying now. You would never understand a girl's heart entirely.It's okay, i want to move on with my life. Not trying to forget you. Trying to forget when i first fell for you.It's okay if you don't get to return your love back to me, its okay.Ive experienced all these before, eventhough those were smaller obstacles than these.For all i know i will always be your bestfriend, and you, will be my bestfriend.I don't think fate even dares to entire our relationship, neither does love.Sorry for making you feel guilty my dear friend.

Lastly, i love you with whatever remains i have now. Eventhough it's shattered.
I love you as a bestfriend.

-Eefarh.